Family Time

This was a hard week to say the least. A week full of conflict in the presence of extended family is always a struggle. I find it almost painful to thank God for our family prior to Thanksgiving dinner. I live for the day that I won't have to work so hard to love the family God has blessed me with even in the midst of screaming and fighting. However, I have learned one thing that I have to constantly remind myself of; sometimes the action comes before the feelings. By this I mean that sometimes I have to perform a loving action before I will feel love for this person. An example in my life would be hugging my mom back when she hugs me after school. I have slowly developed more and more affection towards my mom by forcing myself to do something I am not in the mood to do. I've found that this also works in my relationship with the Lord. To get up in the morning or stay up at night when I'm tired is hard especially when I'm not deeply in love with this God that I'm supposed to spend time talking to everyday. Despite this, remember, sometimes the action comes before the feeling. I have fallen more in love with Him after spending more time with Him. It has become less of a chore and more of a pleasure.

That's about all I can write right now!
L8R!